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2025-08-28 03:00 pm
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✩ small girl, big dreams ✩





hi! i'm reeza, and i'm #notasuhostan, i swear. lies.
i have a crush on kyungsoo and baekhyun's sunshine hair.
also, i like small, squishy things.

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2016-03-25 07:11 pm

bts: you make my heart beat (faster)

you make my heart beat (faster)
— Suga/Jin. PG-13. 124347 words.
Everything's going too fast. One step forward, and Seokjin's tendering his resignation from a company he's been servicing for eight years. Two steps, and he's going out for interviews, reviewing a job offer, signing a contract, on the first bus to Sallim-dong. Three steps, and he finds himself trapped in an elevator with an ex who ran away from him years ago and with his faith in humanity in tow.

Enter the agency's Chief Creative Officer, and everything slows the fuck down.
(Warnings: mentions of alcohol consumption and minor characters making out under the influence (completely consensual, though), mentions of minor character death, mentions of family issues and self-destructive tendencies in the past. Please take these warnings seriously.)

— Written for [profile] elfscouts 2015.


☆ hi nini! so initially, i was hoping to make this fic a combination of around 3-4 of the first meeting prompts, but somewhere between me plotting things out and crying over yoonjin, i... sorta... got carried away with one of the first meeting prompts. haha ;; that said, i really hope you enjoy this! i recommend keeping a box of tissues on standby because some parts may be hella #relatable. i tried not to be obvious, but oh well. /yoongishrug.gif #swag #thuglyfe

also, despite all the warnings, rest assured that 1) 95% of the fic is fun and games; and 2) the fic ends happily!

as always, thank you to the gang for always cheering me on, for the support, for lending an ear whenever i needed someone to work out plot points with. to c, for the beta work and consults and for generally being such great support, thank you so much! lastly, many thanks to z and s for letting me throw chunks of this fic at them on the regular. your squeals and screams are my delight. i love you!


☆ an accompanying playlist is HERE, and the ending song is HERE.
rustle: (01 • i lay my love on you.)
2015-11-19 12:24 pm

exo: wip: break of serve

break of serve
— Suho/Kai, past Suho/Chen, past Suho/Jonghyun, with a dash of past Suho/Luna, Xiumin/Krystal, and Chen/Sunny on the side. PG-13. 52075 words.
— 0-15, joonmyun meets a university kid by the name of kim jongin. 0-30, he swings his racket for the first time in seven years. 0-40, he makes the mistake of watching jongin long enough for jongin’s shy smile to burn at the back of his eyelids. game, and their story begins. (Warnings: age gap, mentions of serious body injuries, self-destructive behavior)
— i originally wrote this for thegameseason but was never able to finish it ;; if and when i do continue it, most of the original plot will have to be reworked soooo, yeah! here's some sukai for all of you. have fun? c:


Joonmyun looks around him one last time and takes a deep breath. )
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2015-11-07 07:04 pm

bts: head first and no regrets

head first and no regrets
— Jimin/Jeongguk. NC-17. 10200 words.
— there are pros and cons to working with jeon jeongguk, jimin believes. on the cons, in increasing order of importance: jeongguk comes to work late 75% of the time, it takes jeongguk approximately an entire hour to boot his brain, and jeongguk always asks for extensions. on the pros, however... jeon jeongguk might as well be the 'pro', himself. (Also available on AO3 and Livejournal.)

☆ this fic was built on the premise of this line that has been swimming in my mind for days now – "our jiminnie works so hard!" was supposed to be built on that, at least, but then Feelings happened and this Thing turned into... passionate lovemaking. and rina dearest, i know i promised full on thigh-fucking but um. yeah. happy belated birthday, jimin? ;; /waves pompoms, anyway

☆ that said, many thanks to bts corner, adele, chels, and shii for untiringly cheering me on as i cried over porn! ♥ for maximum feels, please listen to kodaline's one day. title taken from walk the moon's aquaman.



If you used your heart as much as you used your brain, hyung, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't have had to ask me 'why'. )
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2015-11-07 07:03 pm

bts: challenge the call

challenge the call
— Suga/Jin. NC-17. 108460 words.
yoongi didn’t miss the second serve; he made sure to aim it down the line. seokjin, that fucker, just got in the way. (Warning/s: mentions of minor character death, mentions of injuries, trauma due to bad experience with parents, discussions of homophobia/implied homophobia)
— Written for [community profile] thegameseason. An accompanying playlist is HERE.

☆ i can't believe it – it's finally over. 'challenge the call' is finally over. i'd originally written this for thegameseason, but in the end it became more of a declaration of love for suga/jin and tennis. i have no regrets, though c: many, many thanks to Corner a.k.a. #theyoongiproblem a.k.a the best bangtan buddies ever, thank you so much for cheering me on. to f, thank you for the fantastic beta job despite your busy schedule. to l, thank you so much for the 4 a.m. jinga talks, for helping me with the outline, for being the best jinga buddy ever. to 2As, c, j, s, and n, thank you for all the support and for believing that this fic actually has An End.
rustle: (01 • i lay my love on you.)
2015-08-07 04:30 pm

exo: little loves

little loves
— Sehun/Lay, Sehun/Suho, Sehun/Xiumin. PG. 1090 words.
— Sehun falls in love twice... and finds himself sharing a plate of tteokbokki with a complete stranger.
— For my beloved [livejournal.com profile] xiukisses, on her special day ♥ Also available on AO3.



First crush, first love, and first time to be found. )
rustle: (08 • can hardly believe it.)
2015-07-13 10:59 pm

exo: here's a map; now let's get lost together.

here's a map; now let's get lost together.
— Baekhyun/Kyungsoo, mentions of Suho/Luna, hinted Krystal/Kyungsoo, and Seungsoo/Boa. NC-17. 325700 words.
— So here's the plan: Kyungsoo goes to Mokpo-si and claims a Pokemon to start his journey with. He earns his trainer license and gets a PokeDex, to boot. He runs into a familiar face and falls flat on his ass, only to find out that this guy who'd just knocked him to the ground? It's the same guy he's spent the past decade of his life trying to stay away from. And it's the same person who has half of the Pokeball he carries around with him in his pocket wherever he goes. (Warnings: graphic depictions of violence, blood, animal/Pokemon-harming, serious body injuries, mentions of death in the family due to war, sex without protection. Please take these warnings seriously.)


Kyungsoo takes another step forward and shuts the doors behind him. His Pokemon journey has just begun.





notes:
☆ first off: this fic deals heavily with violence. you have been warned. also, the project name for this fic is ‘maps', hence the title in the tweet. the complete title is here's a map; now let's get lost together. feel free to refer to it as ‘maps', though!

☆☆ second, my biggest thank you to the exordium mods for holding this fest and for being such superstars all in all. to frances, my beta and my savior, the mac to my cheese, my partner in crime, thank you SO MUCH for everything. to jq who helped me with important pokemon choices for the characters, my endless thanks. thank you, as well, to the people who have kept me sane throughout the writing period, cheered me on, listened to me rant and rave about pokemon, sprinted with me and kept me awake, for the quick-consults-turned-lengthy-discussions – lonio, chelsea, hyemi, ansa, ren, adele, and jenn. when i say i wouldn't have made it through without you, i mean it. i cannot thank you enough. I LOVE YOU ♥ lastly, to team aster, for being such great sports and for powering through, you guys are the best! we made it, everyone. we finally made it c:

☆☆☆ here's an accompanying playlist for the story, split into two parts – wayward paths, # 1 and # 2. for a background theme, please listen to this.

☆☆☆☆ HERE's a padlet with photos of all the pokemon that were mentioned in the fic, listed in the order that they appeared. (high-res JPEG | low-res JPEG)

☆☆☆☆☆ and HERE's a map of the important places featured in this fic.
rustle: (02 • it's all i wanna do.)
2015-07-13 08:50 pm

exo: kiss quick

kiss quick
— Lu Han/Kyungsoo. NC-17. 8450 words.
— there are two trophies to be won in end-of-the-year awards shows: the gold one that you receive on stage and the one you clutch tight under the dinner table, shielded from the rest of the world. (Warnings: semi-public foreplay?, rimming, fisting)
— march 8, white day advent calendar, for [livejournal.com profile] seafoamblues. also on AO3.
— p.s. kyungsoo didn't shove his fist up lu han's ass, fret not. no asses were harmed in the production of this fic. thank you ♥



Months after Lu Han's retirement from the band and Kyungsoo still gets that weird, sinking sensation in his stomach that feels a lot like taking two, three punches to the gut when he sees Lu Han in the news, in old pictures as a band, in Chanyeol's Line contacts when Kyungsoo feels like snooping around, looking over Chanyeol's shoulder and just staying for a while. )
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2015-07-11 11:16 pm

exo: take me in, take me deeper

take me in, take me deeper
— Baekhyun/Kyungsoo. PG-13. 6685 words.
— As far as Baekhyun knows, kissing his boss isn’t part of the job description. (Warnings: creepy stalkers, two people kissing under the influence of alcohol but completely consensual)
— for ebie and kitten! @ fake dating au week. alternate titles: icantwriteshortbaeksoo.txt, lolwhatwasithinking.txt, utriedreezautried.txt



'Kiss me, Kyungsoo whispers in a rush. Baekhyun looks up in an instant, peeking through his bangs, taking a sharp breath. Then he tilts his head – to urge Kyungsoo to go on or in question, he can’t tell. All he knows right now is that Kyungsoo’s voice isn’t shaking, wavering, and he looks a hundred percent serious about what he’s just proposed. I said, kiss me.' )
rustle: (04 • you open up my heart.)
2015-07-06 06:06 pm

exo: can't fight this feeling

can't fight this feeling
— Baekhyun/Chen. PG. 1000 words.
— Break-ups aren't supposed to be called 'break-ups'. They're supposed to be called 'opening oneself to the probability of finally looking at that someone who's always been by your side in the eye and saying, ah, yes, I'm home'.
— ANSA MADE ME DO IT. for kitten's fake dating au thinggie.



The thing about break-ups is that they're not really supposed to be called 'break-ups'. )
rustle: (01 • i lay my love on you.)
2015-05-27 11:37 am

exo: some air'd be good for you

some air'd be good for you
— Suho/Lay, past Suho/Baekhyun, mentions of Suho/Xiumin and Suho/Yura. R (for mature themes and scenes towards the end). 75000 words.
— Joonmyun makes certain changes in his schedule to accommodate certain people. And with that comes hollowing out a portion of his heart for someone to find a home in. (Warning/s: drama, mentions of character death and accidents, mentions of blood, hints of self-destructive behavior, weird medical practices, magic shenanigans)
— Written for [personal profile] suholiday 2015. Originally posted HERE.


ORIGINAL | (Best read on) AO3
rustle: (01 • i lay my love on you.)
2015-05-16 10:25 pm

exo: you will never sleep alone

you will never sleep alone
— Suho/Lu Han. NC-17. 17000 words.
— In the span of a year, Joonmyun loses two things: a co-leader when Kris asks for his contract to be terminated, and a portion of his sanity and his heart when Lu Han turns occasional late night talks into regular heart-to-heart sessions.
— Written for [community profile] kpop_olymfics 2015. Originally posted HERE.



He's gonna leave you, too, someday, Joonmyun. Don't take sides just yet. Don't give in. )
rustle: (08 • can hardly believe it.)
2015-05-06 08:47 am

exo: notice me

notice me
— Baekhyun/Kyungsoo. PG-13. 22200 words.
— a fansite is supposed to be a repository of pictures, not feelings. clearly, kyungsoo still has a lot to learn.
— Written for prompt 85 for [community profile] sooenaemoured 2015! Originally posted HERE. As always, to b1 and b2, r, a, and h, thank you for the cheerleading and late night writing sessions ♥
Note: In the part where Kyungsoo releases a compilation of his 'off-the-record' duets with Baekhyun and demos of their songs together, it might read as a bit problematic as, ideally, Kyungsoo should have asked for Baekhyun's permission before releasing the compilation. I apologize if this made some uncomfortable. :( In no way do I tolerate creepy/stalkerish behavior. Again, I apologize if this made some uncomfortable.



Guys, please, we don't have to know about your sound booth sex escapades. )
rustle: (02 • it's all i wanna do.)
2015-03-06 10:39 am

exo: oh, the things we invent

oh, the things we invent (when we are scared and want to be rescued)
— Baekhyun/Baekhyun + Kyungsoo, eventual Baekhyun/Kyungsoo. NC-17. 16000 words.
— "prepare for trouble," baekhyun said. "and make it double," baekhyun – the other baekhyun – added.
— march 8, white day advent calendar, for [livejournal.com profile] drankcontrast.
— a kind artist drew something for this fic HERE! please show her lots of love ♥



For all of their training in SM, they've never been taught how to place complete trust in people. Believe that the weirdest possible thing like actually debuting with someone who has the ability to multiply is possible.  )
rustle: (06 • walk right through.)
2015-02-20 09:22 pm

infinite/exo: there's only one chance to take a picture (1/5)

「シャッターチャンスは一度だけ」 (there's only one chance to take a picture)
— Baekhyun/Myungsoo, Woohyun/Myungsoo, and some others. NC-17. 126395 words.
— frame one: myungsoo resigns from red balloon and agrees to doing an exhibit with howon. frame two: he bumps into sunggyu on opening day and promises to meet up with him again sometime soon. frame three: he meets byun baekhyun, SM's rising star. and frame four… there is no frame four. baekhyun has already messed up with the shot list and, consequently, myungsoo's life. (Warnings: brief mentions of homophobia, rimming, gratuitous amount of drama)
— Written for [livejournal.com profile] cosmicfish in fulfillment of an [livejournal.com profile] exorelieffund bid! Tanya, thank you SO MUCH for being so patient with me and I apologize that this fic 1) is too long, and 2) took too long to write. T__T I really, really hope you like this fic! As always, many thanks to tlist for all the support, especially to F, L, C, S, and A for the constant cheering. You've all been instrumental in keeping me sane. ♥



Life does that to you sometimes, pushes you away from people and pushes you to your limit. )